This morning i heard news that my childhood friend passed away. After the long battle that spanned 2 weeks, his body finally gave up. I'm lost, upset, confused, hurt and more importantly heart broken. We grew up together in Australia, we thought each other everything there is, then when the time it was for me to leave, he still said this sentence "No matter where ever we are, brothers for life."
Although we were at opposite ends of the world, we were always there, he helped me through tough battles and was a major part in my life. A brother i never had. I'm so fucking lost, i've got this hole in my heart so big. I thought losing my ex was bad, THIS IS WORSE!
So far i've covered up how i felt when im out at work or out with friends. This is where i let it all out. MY diary. Hiaz i dunno wat to do now, im so so lost. Brother i feel fucking guilty for leaving you in australia alone. I shouldn't had left you behind.
No matter how much i cry behind closed doors, and no matter how much i hurt myself, he is never coming back. I can't even afford to fly over there, i've saved up $3000 for the trip there, but my family needs it more. i think somehow he would want me to give it to them too.
Brother no matter wad i will make u proud always. I've fulfilled half the promise to be able to try everything in life, and im still trying and learning new things. I love you.
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EVERYONE WILL BE SAD IF THEIR LOVE ONES HAS GONE FOREVER... BUT TAKE THIS IN POSITIVE WAYS..RATHER THAN HE SUFFER TRYING TO OVERCOME THE PAINS... IT'S BETTER FOR GOD TO TAKE HIM AWAY AND LIVE IN BEAUTIFUL EDEN... DUN MISUNDERSTOOD ME... IN MY RELIGION NO MATTER HOW PAIN TO LOST THE ONE U LOVES... BUT TO US IT'S A BLESSING... MEAN LESS SINS FROM HIM ON EARTH WHERE LESS PUNISHMENT FOR HIM IN OTHER WORLD.... JUST PRAY FOR HIM TAT MAY HE REST IN PEACE DOWN THERE... U CAN FLY THERE ANY TIME MY DEAR FRIEND... ONCE U ARE STABLE... DO TAKE OF YOURSELF AND TREASURE THE LOVES ONE THAT WITH YOU NOW SUCH AS UR FAMILY AND ETC. GALFRENS CAN BE FIND ANYTIME AND I BELIEVE THAT GIRL IS JUST HIDDING AT THE CORNER OF THE WORLD. U WILL FIND HER ONE DAY... OKAY I MIGHT AS WELL WRITE COMPO...LOL.. TAKE CARE KAES
Yea..Your right pretty much in every aspect. Although people have different religions, in some ways their beliefs are the same. yea thanks i feel better i guess, jus still feel like sometin's missing. Thanks babe <3
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