Stupid!?!? argh!

You wanna know the most stupid thing?

Before i even started work at starhub i told this gal that i'm not ready, that she was great and i loved everything about her but i wasn't ready. Then while at that period i was working at starhub i met someone, i wasn't sure what the hell was going on at first, all i know is that i did not initiate anything. With the doses of sms on my off days, and certain online conversations i got the wrong idea as
A, she was too friendly,
B, she was too damn quiet to speak up,
C, well i don't know C yet, but it's weird.

I actually thought she had some interest in me, at first when she would contact me i was like erm WTF, but then slowly i started to like her. OMFG! What the hell was i thinking, she was such a pain in the ass. Now we're not talking, but i don't care, i even had the guts to apologize although it wasn't all my fault? LOL. All i know is that i took the guts to tell her and clearify the air before it seriously escalated to some big ass problem. Well it's good now, she has someone and me, well i have you.

Now i realise that i shouldn't had left u astray my dear, you are really special much more and much more to come. I was stupid to think that i wasn't ready, but i was honest! I wanted to make sure that the feelings i have for you were real and NOT the rebound. After this STUPID incident, i realise that that one gal truly meant for me was RIGHT INFRONT of me and always there when i needed her. I'm so sorry, and i'll make it up to you every chance i get.

Guys this is all the post about my love life has to stop, it's getting too public especially after that starhub incident. Those who want access to private entries pls ask me first. Don't bother looking, you will never find it.

Time to mend things with her
nitex <3