Tuesday Yellows

Overall it was a nice day off for a change, had breakfast with cousin at 4am this morning, seriously like super tired once i hit the sack around 8am.

You guys ever get those feelings when you feel that your head is lying in bed but your body is out and lurking around hastily to come home? Well if you do let me know, i found the perfect remedy, try slices of lemon boiled in hot water with a pinch of sugar and a teabag. Yea it's something like ice lemon tea or some shit but seriously it's so much different when it's fresh off the stove.

With 4 hours of sleep, i somehow managed to meet up with Jasmine. Weeks ago she claims we haven't met up in like a year, then again with army, time flies in all directions and places you seriously do not wanna know. So i guess YOU kinda slipped off my mind love at that point <3. Well all in all a super good lunch in town followed by a movie at her place. Something different i guess, but after the first 40 mins i fell asleep in her room and her parents came home. LOL! jialat jialat. Well we're not exactly dating or are we? What was it you told your parents again for the quick getaway? HAHA! You should had just told them i was a male stripper or something, the sunglasses really suited the role perfectly babe.

After the ordeal anyways, the ride home was a killer. Rush hour and i'm on the train from West to EAST. SEriously i was frustrated and exhausted enough to literally fight for a seat, luckily i had a wall to lean on. Erm i mean sleep on, i slept standing up the whole 55 mins ride till Pasir Ris. Good thing i really live at the end of the line.

okok lets sum it up, thanks everyone for the well wishes, my cat is fine now and she's being lazily cute as can be, means she'll be fine haha. kk la i'm gonna sleep, i actually took the punching bag out and smacked the shit out of it once i got home earlier today. oh and if i don't reply my msn, i'm not home, sometimes i leave the computer on as i sync it up outside via network.

kk la time to slp. nitex
love you babe, thanks for today.
cho

Some people think they're better then everyone else, some even think that you would remain good friends with them as and when they please especially if they're best friends are neglecting them. Well guess what? I know when people i call friends do that and i know when some of you use me or when need my company, but hey i'm fine with it, just that i have no respect for you nor would i go out of my way to help you. So we can continue being friends but bare this in mind yea =)

My close friends know this and some of you should know as well, i don't take shit from anyone not even my own parents. That's me....

Firstly i would like to say good luck to all those having exams this week and next and the following week after that. Recently everyone's been telling me about their exams and kind enough to tell me their schedules so i won't plan anything during their exams period. Argh kinda makes me wish i was back in school, but not studying Triple EEE (Engineering) but more like business and econs etc. Hmms well my turn will come mates, and you'll actually realize how left out i feel. LOL.

Here's a Little Quote i thought would be adequate enough for all those studying. Something other then the "Study hard jia you" phrases.

"An educated person is one who has learned that information almost always turns out to be at best incomplete and very often false, misleading, fictitious, mendacious - just dead wrong."

Russell Baker 

Anyways today once i turned on my phone after work, there was likes a couple of messages and missed calls. I thought i told most of you guys that i'll be in base on Sunday morning. But anyways i apologize for missing lunch, chillax periods, dinner, pub/clubbing and gym. I really don't have a lot of time on my hands, so if anything do let me know in advance so i can jot it down in my diary. As it is the next few weekends i have chalets and birthdays to attend. Quite crazy seriously but oh well, we shall see, i'll try make time to meet everyone of ya. Thanks again for all the support and stuff yea, i'm seriously trying super hard with training and upcoming competitions.

Wah i'm seriously so tired, i still may have running later lol, i haven't really been exercising at all, i've jus been slacking not a good thing. Need to go back to my routines everyday. Silly night shifts at work, my third week in a row, seriously no life.

SAT 25th April

Firstly i would like to say, i got home at effing 0020HRS this morning from camp. Seriously that's bloody interesting lol, worse part sunday morning i'll be back in base, which is a couple of hours from now. Argh seriously this sucks balls. Oh well i made the best out of it....

Lets see, woke up this morning, did push ups like crazy and weights oh which people have been commenting that i'm more buff which is a good thing. For once my training routine is working out it seems. Then again i wanna burn the fats, 3 months is the target.

I played the guitar for awhile, played Paramore's Ignorance (Acoustic) then it was off to more push ups then out with jen's for lunch. She bought me a pair of berms wtf. Darling i'm not your bf don't need treat me so good la LOL. Thanks love!
During Lunch : Posted via Facebook

was in line queing for chicken this afternoon, the person in front of me was pouring chilli into a little saucer and in a quick attempt to savor her food, splashed chilli on my hair and in my eyes. Inconsiderate Bastards. FML!

I mean seriously la can't people be more careful and at lease more considerate or even apologize. Fucking hell i even needed Jen's help to even wash the chilli shit out of my eyes. Mutha Fookers! So pissed off. 

Met up with mum's and sis did some shopping and did some shopping at Tampines T1. Took turns trying out all the sunnies at UNIGLO << CANT SPELL IT.....All in all a super fun day.

Ended the night well shall i say morning with a BBQ with old mates. Guys and Gals exchanging ARMY/WORK/SCHOOL Stories. Awesomeness Seriously. Love you all.

 Alright needa go do some shit and some more pushups LOL! addicted sah. 

Nitex all

Work again tmr morning FML!

Yummy Pies.

Just made some chicken pies! Although it looks kinda flat LOL, i think i need more practice. I'm really out of touch with my baking, thankfully my culinary skills hasn't got the worse of me. Well i have like 22Hrs before i have to report back to work, on a fucking sunday. Seriously FML.....

Hmms have a bbq/gathering later, although i booked the bbq pit for $100 non refundable, my friends wanna do it at Pasir Ris Park instead. I wonder if they actually know i paid cash? Hmms. Nvm. We'll see how the evening goes.
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enjoying life........

Hmms hey guys, once again i apologize if i can't meet you all this week. I have a very very tight schedule especially with the dance stand off coming up and my usual training for upcoming competitions. Then again there's the " Army " excuse, but seriously i'm truly sorry, working the PM shifts means i work throughout the night and i'm home during the day. I've already managed to meet some people during the day but that's about it for me really.

Hmms so i'm back with the guitar again, strumming away as i please throughout the day before work. I can only play a couple of songs, but i've recently started playing to John Legend's songs. They're really super nice and the beat isn't too fast for my pathetic fingers to keep up with. Only problem is the blisters are back once again =_=.

Other then that i've started sketching and drawing again, i'm like getting back to my hobbies and using the computer far less. Then again the computer is always on for my tunes =_= so not much of a difference anyways hAHA.

Training wise it's getting hard to maintain discipline! I now can only carry 1.3 times my bodyweight which is roughly about 120kg. Not good enough. Not to mention everyone's like super busy to train with me, and when they're free it's like i'm busy. Hopeless honestly.....

FML man! Seriously time isn't a luxury for me, i don't even have time for friends, i barely have time for family let alone time for myself. Even my training routine has been compromised, from the 200 push-ups a day and skipping plus gym/swim/jog to like once every 2-3 days. I'm starting to feel fat! this won't do!! Good thing i have like 2 hours before my shift.

Thanks to all those who have contacted me over the last few days, i'm fine and i can't be bothered about Jane anymore. She has to learn to grow up a little and she'll be fine. And i'm not emo lol, wth! I'm just very very expressive with my feelings and beliefs. Argh gtg need use the gym and book the BBQ pit.


Once again i'm sorry to some of you guys
Pam's for missing breakfast all the way at NUS =_=, hate u.
Geoff for lunch.
Randall and mates for tonight's TIMBRE, i'll try to make it.
Louis for chillax session, i'll call you later.
RASCAL3 - Look forward to our poolside BBQ tmr evening!

What you did tonight is something i haven't felt in awhile. You brought me dinner and you waited at my poolside for me to come home from work. I'm truly touched! I really am, spending time with you again and catching up on lost times was really something. But after all that you had to mention it. Why? What's the point? It's over, please get over it. I feel so fucking stupid telling you over and over again until i've reached the point that i'm tired of concealing everything to all my friends and family. Some of them have found out one way or another and it's so embarrassing that a grown man can't even handle these situations without making such a scene. Haven't you hurt me enough with Dave and that other fucker. I'm already doing my utmost to stay close friends with you can't you see it. I'm sorry i truly am and i know you regret everything you've done but the damage is done. I can never hold your hand without thinking of the amount of betrayal which trails endlessly behind our footsteps.

This is the last straw, i honestly don't care what you do with your life nor will i bother to help you. It's been so so so fucking long since we've split. Let me have my own life again and start dating without you scaring every single other person i meet away. Stop meeting me (pretending to bump into me outside my coincidence), and then ask me about my plans and my day. I'm not interested in anything you have to say.

It's hurting me so fucking deep inside just typing this to you, i even have a bloody exam tmr at 9am. You know my work involves peoples lives and weapons so do not spoil my concentration. Please stay the hell away from me until i bother to contact you. I'm sorry and yea...that's all i have to say.

nitex.

BEACH

Gazed upon from distant stars 

feel the echoes from within,

a touch of melody, a dainty hollow 

a blind man's whisper,

a dark shadow.

Blindly as if colourblind

words of poison with each sip of wine.

meticulously poised,

dangerously dark yet defined.

Misleading was the answer...

Jenna i've posted it. HAHAAHA!

I just had a big ass nudging from a dear friend, well she's more like a sis to me. looks like i better take her advice before she kills me. But then again i think you're already gonna kill me right? haha. Too bad i've posted it.


~~^.⬢:*"°:⬢.[ jens ].⬢:*"°:⬢.^~~,,,,, says:
 Mark what the hell is with your postings lately? You're like all emo again! Get a grib bro!

 ...marco... observations through distant echoes says:
 What?!?! No la i don't think so. What are you talking about how am i emo?
eh ps but what are u on abt gal.?

~~^.⬢:*"°:⬢.[ jens ].⬢:*"°:⬢.^~~,,,,, says:
 Ex-gf this ex gf that, aiya fuck care her la after what she did to you! Move on dude.

 ...marco... observations through distant echoes says:
 Hey Hey Hey you giving me relationship advice? Don't forget who's the only guy who's never left your side LOL

~~^.⬢:*"°:⬢.[ jens ].⬢:*"°:⬢.^~~,,,,, says:
 eh
 i'm talking about you ok!!!

 ...marco... observations through distant echoes says:
 fine fine fine, you were saying love

~~^.⬢:*"°:⬢.[ jens ].⬢:*"°:⬢.^~~,,,,, says:
 ok as i was saying be4 i was rudely interrupted!
 you need to jus hack care all these external and foreign influences! You have so much to look forward to, for one your massive makeover, your ideas and skills in business and even your cooking! oh my gawd cook for me again next week bro!

 ...marco... observations through distant echoes says:
 huh? wah
 eh no time cook le
 what's with the sudden spread of words. looks like you've been watching me closely as u've always. I'm fine la i'm not bothered but i'm just very friendly and i think some people take the wrong way of things

~~^.⬢:*"°:⬢.[ jens ].⬢:*"°:⬢.^~~,,,,, says:
 oh ic
 well then i'm not sure what i can say but i know that it's time you got yourself a gf!
 for goodness sake stop being super friendly with everyone and just be friendly with 1 person, 1 gal i mean.

 ...marco... observations through distant echoes says:
 zZz
 i have been friendly too a lot of people but that's just me isn't it, i mean you know me that well enough to tell i can't change. nor would i. As for the gal part, i do really like someone, but i think she's really not interested other then being good friends, so i rather have her as a friend then nothing at all. As for the other people i really jus don't like em, don't know why i'm getting all this unwanted attention though. I'm ugly and fat!
~~^.⬢:*"°:⬢.[ jens ].⬢:*"°:⬢.^~~,,,,, says:
 ahaha! you stud! So humble as usual. Hey you're not ugly ok! I'm sure a lot of people have told u! You're not fat either, jus big and recently more more muscle looking?!?!

 ...marco... observations through distant echoes says:
 um ok thanks dear!
 
~~^.⬢:*"°:⬢.[ jens ].⬢:*"°:⬢.^~~,,,,, says:
 okok i need to go back to study!
 NUS is a bitch wish you were here in school with us!!

 ...marco... observations through distant echoes says:
 oh okays =) um thanks again! lol..

~~^.⬢:*"°:⬢.[ jens ].⬢:*"°:⬢.^~~,,,,, says:
 oh and one more thing, start enjoying life! don't be a cry baby and complain complain.AND U BETTER NOT POST THIS ON YOUR BLOG!

 ...marco... observations through distant echoes says:
 zZz...i wasn't gonna. but since you've mentioned it. Look at it by tmr hahah! i'm jus gonna do it to piss u off.


~~^.⬢:*"°:⬢.[ jens ].⬢:*"°:⬢.^~~,,,,, says:
 bb argh projects. kk la i go study bye bye.

 ...marco... observations through distant echoes says:
 laters
 =)

Troubles

As for the MAIN TROUBLE, i can't shake my ex away, i met her the other day for dinner just to tell her that we can still keep in contact as friends but she doesn't want it. She's like so stubborn. It's been so long already yet she still clings on to me, i don't know why she can't go back to the other 2 guys when she was cheating on me. I won't and cannot tolerate people who cheat on another, it's easy to say " forgive and forget" ; but with any amended mirror the cracks will always show. For that purpose i have moved on and won't be looking back.

Then there's also a person i met at a club with friends couple weeks back. Her name's Annabelle, we exchanged phone numbers but i just wanna be friends. I don't mind going out with her as she asked me to but it's been once or twice too many in a week. She's not bad looking and her personality is great but that's not the only thing i look in someone. I'll be meeting her this week for lunch before work, hopefully she'll get the message.

Man I'm really in some serious shit once again. Damn it. Why and how i do get myself in these situations i really do not know. 

Keep those sms/msn's coming in guys.

Thanks for all the pep talks and stuff.

laters....

100 push ups ago i typed up that silly post, now i feel better, all the blood has rushed to my head, i can think more clearly now. There's been a few things bugging me lately and i just don't know how to put it in words without sparking off the wrong ideas. Not to mention this blog site has been compromised with at lease 10 readers a day (if that stupid head count reader works). But anyways this blog site is boring and pointless and a waste of time compared to maybe 2 years back. So in short, go find something better to do! =)

As for the situations, one of them is about me in camp. Everyone thinks i'm a player! wtf?!?! They think i go around screwing gals and stuff like that. It's like so not true, i'm not that kinda guy. They even ask me to lend them some of my friends for sex. I'm am so fucking disgusted nor have i spoken to some of them since. It's wrong, it's sickening in all areas and i have no respect for this kinda people. On one hand i might talk to you all friendly and shit, but that's all. You have no respect from me nor will i help you out of tight spots if the need arises. If i had that kind of mentality i could have done all that shit but for what? What's to gain out of 5-10 mins of pleasure?

So disgusted and sickened but this.....
Thank God not all people are like this...

Enough is enough,

My patience has reached it's limit, i'm about to go cold and heartless if i'm pestered one more time. Some of you know who it's about since she calls you guys as well to find out where i am. Fucking hell i'm gonna go ape shit soon if this continues. Ruins my concentration and mood especially when i'm handling dangerous things at work. If you care you would just leave me alone it's affecting my life. thanks.

Besides i think i like someone but i just haven't told her yet. At lease i'm telling you the truth. Sorry...
nitex....

Finally things are starting to look brighter with where i'm gonna go and stuff, i can't say much but i need to renew my passport. Let's say i'm going back home for awhile! Think i just gave it away =_=''.  But it's ages away, the short term trip this week was put off so yea all's good.

I've been eating like more and more lately with the extra 3kg muscle mass i've recently put on. I can finally lift 50kgs with one hand which is like finally! zzzz. I've even tested carrying a 120kg man the other day, but i've only lasted a couple lol. Hmms the competitions are a couple away too, and i'm not sure if i even have time to go. Does anyone else wanna join? or the mini one? At lease i can train with someone for it, won't be as boring. Imagine running 21km by yourself =_= i might just fall asleep.


I don't think i'll be buying my iphone or BlackBerry. Kinda wanna get mum and dad a new flat screen for their room so i can throw out their big-ass bulky one and get sis a laptop. Think 3 ppl happy is better then just me being happy. okok i'm just talking nonsense gonna go sleep.

keep those comments coming through via msn/sms
loves
cho.

I effing hate ppl who call me rich. I've worked so so hard and at times 2 jobs spanning 20 hours a day. Damn army people. I just learnt how to save and put money in the right places of investment. Is that so abnormal? Geez...whatever la..and they all drive cars and still call me this. Irritating....

Blogging

Was talking to a friend i haven't seen in ages this now and she was telling me how she likes to write out all her feelings and emotions out on diary etc. Which goes to answer the questions why i blog. Although i do have a diary and a monthly journal, i sometimes prefer to do it here. Of which some of my private postings aren't accessible without password etc. Then again i don't have anything to hide so i can't be stuffed.

Anyways went jogging to Pasir Ris Park which i so shouldn't have done! I managed to sleep a couple of hours this evening and woke up forgetting about the fever and vomiting, i just don't know how =_=. Good thing a friend was around the corner to pick me up and send me home. thanks!  

Anyways i am quite surprised by the amount views who read my previous post. And yes i did apologize countless times to my friend, but she's totally ignoring me so there's nothing i can do. Don't blame her though. As for the crazy ex gf, there's nothing i can do, if she feels like she wants to end her life then go the fuck ahead. I've suffered long enough and i wanna live my own new life away from all this.

Argh super super tired gonna sleep.

Welcome back to singapore sis! See you soon!
love
cho

Bad start to the week

Hey guys hope you all had an awesome long weekend cause i know i did haha. Just want to tell you all how much i miss meeting you guys. Some of you i rarely see nowadays either studying locally/overseas or working. But nvm i'm gonna have a giant giant giant party at year's end and the guest list will be in the hundreds LOL. Just need to decide on the venue of the club hmms and the pre-booking.

I've had a very very bad day from 0000Hrs to now (1348Hrs). I've had an argument with a dear friend, although it wasn't really my intention to sound so snide. When i sms as most of you know i don't really pay attention to what i type sometimes it comes out wrong, erm most of the time. Hiaz i think i lost a friend today and i just haven't slept at all since 1am. Kinda hurts deep down and although i wanna apologize again and again, i think she just wants her peace away from me. (Strike 1)

To make matter worse besides no sleep, i got a big screwing from my superiors today for reasons i'm not sure about. Apparently i failed to mention something but it was not part of my job scope so i don't see why i had to report it especially if it isn't in my field of expertise. Argh!! Worse my cousin is an officer how would it reflect on him if i fuck up again. (Strike 2)

Cab home was shit! Uncle drove so slow and i already wasn't feeling well with fever and slight vomiting. I know i should eat something but i seriously have no mood to eat, i just wanna keep my stomach empty before i puke again. Oh and did i mention the uncle drove the cab into the barrier of construction? It's those huge plastic red-orange barriers which the hard-working construction workers use to segregate the roads. Not only did the bump give me a headache but an extra $5 on top of my cab bill although $3 was knocked off once i got home. (Strike 3)

Seriously i just had the worse day, and some of you know that i ended a relationship like LONG ago cause i caught my ex cheating on me right? Well she's been constantly calling and messaging and sometimes appearing at places that i go to just to talk to me. I'm like super tired of this and one time i almost broke down cause she threatened to take the suicide's route if i don't reconsider. So what i'm trying to say is please understand it i sometimes get suddenly cranky although i don't usually do. But i'm really sorry to anyone if i may have sounded snide or rude or even fucked up, you all know i'm not like that but i'm just under a lot of stress. I'm really sorry and hope you all understand.

I don't really feel very good so if i dun reply ur msn i'll do so eventually.
A heartfelt thanks to all those who have got my back especially Lau who spent the first 4 hours of the day trying to piece me back together after all this shit happened.

Take care all, with love,
cho
5th June 10 / 1412Hrs