Enough is enough,

My patience has reached it's limit, i'm about to go cold and heartless if i'm pestered one more time. Some of you know who it's about since she calls you guys as well to find out where i am. Fucking hell i'm gonna go ape shit soon if this continues. Ruins my concentration and mood especially when i'm handling dangerous things at work. If you care you would just leave me alone it's affecting my life. thanks.

Besides i think i like someone but i just haven't told her yet. At lease i'm telling you the truth. Sorry...
nitex....

Finally things are starting to look brighter with where i'm gonna go and stuff, i can't say much but i need to renew my passport. Let's say i'm going back home for awhile! Think i just gave it away =_=''.  But it's ages away, the short term trip this week was put off so yea all's good.

I've been eating like more and more lately with the extra 3kg muscle mass i've recently put on. I can finally lift 50kgs with one hand which is like finally! zzzz. I've even tested carrying a 120kg man the other day, but i've only lasted a couple lol. Hmms the competitions are a couple away too, and i'm not sure if i even have time to go. Does anyone else wanna join? or the mini one? At lease i can train with someone for it, won't be as boring. Imagine running 21km by yourself =_= i might just fall asleep.


I don't think i'll be buying my iphone or BlackBerry. Kinda wanna get mum and dad a new flat screen for their room so i can throw out their big-ass bulky one and get sis a laptop. Think 3 ppl happy is better then just me being happy. okok i'm just talking nonsense gonna go sleep.

keep those comments coming through via msn/sms
loves
cho.

I effing hate ppl who call me rich. I've worked so so hard and at times 2 jobs spanning 20 hours a day. Damn army people. I just learnt how to save and put money in the right places of investment. Is that so abnormal? Geez...whatever la..and they all drive cars and still call me this. Irritating....

Blogging

Was talking to a friend i haven't seen in ages this now and she was telling me how she likes to write out all her feelings and emotions out on diary etc. Which goes to answer the questions why i blog. Although i do have a diary and a monthly journal, i sometimes prefer to do it here. Of which some of my private postings aren't accessible without password etc. Then again i don't have anything to hide so i can't be stuffed.

Anyways went jogging to Pasir Ris Park which i so shouldn't have done! I managed to sleep a couple of hours this evening and woke up forgetting about the fever and vomiting, i just don't know how =_=. Good thing a friend was around the corner to pick me up and send me home. thanks!  

Anyways i am quite surprised by the amount views who read my previous post. And yes i did apologize countless times to my friend, but she's totally ignoring me so there's nothing i can do. Don't blame her though. As for the crazy ex gf, there's nothing i can do, if she feels like she wants to end her life then go the fuck ahead. I've suffered long enough and i wanna live my own new life away from all this.

Argh super super tired gonna sleep.

Welcome back to singapore sis! See you soon!
love
cho

Bad start to the week

Hey guys hope you all had an awesome long weekend cause i know i did haha. Just want to tell you all how much i miss meeting you guys. Some of you i rarely see nowadays either studying locally/overseas or working. But nvm i'm gonna have a giant giant giant party at year's end and the guest list will be in the hundreds LOL. Just need to decide on the venue of the club hmms and the pre-booking.

I've had a very very bad day from 0000Hrs to now (1348Hrs). I've had an argument with a dear friend, although it wasn't really my intention to sound so snide. When i sms as most of you know i don't really pay attention to what i type sometimes it comes out wrong, erm most of the time. Hiaz i think i lost a friend today and i just haven't slept at all since 1am. Kinda hurts deep down and although i wanna apologize again and again, i think she just wants her peace away from me. (Strike 1)

To make matter worse besides no sleep, i got a big screwing from my superiors today for reasons i'm not sure about. Apparently i failed to mention something but it was not part of my job scope so i don't see why i had to report it especially if it isn't in my field of expertise. Argh!! Worse my cousin is an officer how would it reflect on him if i fuck up again. (Strike 2)

Cab home was shit! Uncle drove so slow and i already wasn't feeling well with fever and slight vomiting. I know i should eat something but i seriously have no mood to eat, i just wanna keep my stomach empty before i puke again. Oh and did i mention the uncle drove the cab into the barrier of construction? It's those huge plastic red-orange barriers which the hard-working construction workers use to segregate the roads. Not only did the bump give me a headache but an extra $5 on top of my cab bill although $3 was knocked off once i got home. (Strike 3)

Seriously i just had the worse day, and some of you know that i ended a relationship like LONG ago cause i caught my ex cheating on me right? Well she's been constantly calling and messaging and sometimes appearing at places that i go to just to talk to me. I'm like super tired of this and one time i almost broke down cause she threatened to take the suicide's route if i don't reconsider. So what i'm trying to say is please understand it i sometimes get suddenly cranky although i don't usually do. But i'm really sorry to anyone if i may have sounded snide or rude or even fucked up, you all know i'm not like that but i'm just under a lot of stress. I'm really sorry and hope you all understand.

I don't really feel very good so if i dun reply ur msn i'll do so eventually.
A heartfelt thanks to all those who have got my back especially Lau who spent the first 4 hours of the day trying to piece me back together after all this shit happened.

Take care all, with love,
cho
5th June 10 / 1412Hrs

For the last 8 months i've been thinking of joining a group, not just any group but a group that saves up a certain amount of money and travels to those Third World Countries and help those who are really in need. I'm not sure what i can do, but if they need someone to carry heavy logs and build small wooden houses that's one thing i can do easily. I just feel a need to help and i wanna help. After army maybe i'll go, but i need to save up $10k zZz. Wish i was really rich so it wouldn't be a problem. Oh well better the $10k on this then a useless down payment for my car =(


Let me know what you guys think...
Oh um yea no chatbox's in my blog anymore, too many advertises. So you know how else to contact me =)

Seriously my schedule for the next 2 months is seriously getting cramped with the never ending birthdays, parties and chill out sessions with friends and family, but then again mostly friends. So i'm really sorry guys if i have really stopped blogging on like a permanent basis, life is short and i realized that i can be doing a lot more of other things besides blogging, but doing it on the way home in a bus or some shit is still the way to go.

Been recently meeting more people, some becoming good friends and stuff which is awesome. And yes i am single but i guess i just haven't found the right person yet. Actually i think i did but i don't know la haha, she's awesome but to her i'm not so yea maybe another life! HAHA. Anyways been seeing a lot of couples breaking up around me, one couple which i joined for dinner once cause they asked me to, resulted to a huge argument in front of me! This is nuts! If relationships are becoming; " Boy meets girl, girl meets boy, boy and girl kills each other," then i think i'll pass. It's like War of the Worlds when i ate dinner with them, i'm now kinda scared to order fried rice cause that is definately not a side dish i would consider trying EVER again. Luckily that phase of their relationship is over, can happily say i shaped things back up for them in check =)

Been having the craves for singing again, and honestly doing it in the bathroom never satisfies me, I WAS REFERRING TO SINGING! I wanna go back to a hobby which i once did on a full-time kinda basis and back to the variety of musical instruments which i used to play.

Why u ask?

Well after sitting at my usual rocky rocks (bay made of rocks) at pasir ris park the other night after jogging, kinda realised that there's so much i've stopped doing and so much i just forgotten be it people i know, places of interest etc. Army has totally changed my life in a bad way. This won't do and i'm sure some of you know this, so lets get some people together and make some noise or something ok!

Call me sentimental or just plain gay, but i just treasure my new options in life and i don't plan to let it go to waste. Every few hours i would think if i'm fully utilizing my time even sitting down for too long in camp on my ass is bad, so i used the time to make new recipes or even head to the gym. Oh and i wanna go back to working in the kitchens, it's something i just can't throw away, and the longer i suppress it the more crazier it gets once i start cooking. Don't worry i haven't killed anyone yet with my cooking.

I'm sorry guys for the randomness of today's post, i'm just tired and full of anticipation.

TC guys,
cho...